It's nearing the end of my year.
I have two finals Saturday, one Tuesday and a take home one due on Wednesday night.
I am so incredibly unmotivated to do anything.
I don't want to study.
It's pretty bad.
But I shouldn't just sit here and do nothing while I can't sleep (it's useless for me to try to study this late) so I am working on blogposts and searching Pinterest (if you would like an invited just comment below with your email and I will be happy to send you one) for inspiration.
I really need some.
I am more than just stressed that the year is coming to an end I am unhappy with the place I am in my life, but this is another story for another post.
So anyways let's stop with the complaining and start with the inspiration.
Oh and after Wednesday, expect many new posts and videos. I am going to try to do some new types of videos like fashion and hair stuff. I might start vlogging too. I am definitely vlogging my entire Europe trip (oh another reason I am so ready to be done with school) I don't know if those will be up before i get back though because I'm not sure how my internet connection will be.
I found this quote online by Beverly Williams. I typed it using Blessed Day font from dafont.com.
This speaks to me very deeply. I am at that point in my life where I really should be thinking about what I am going to do with my life who I am going to be where I'm going to go and how I am going to do it. I know you need to let things happen and fall into place (you can't find love it has to find you (which it did)) but I want some idea. I don't know. I just dream about being a blogger, YouTuber and maybe starting a company or something of the sort through YouTube. I've seen many girls do it. But my YouTube career (I actually wouldn't call it that) has started off very slow. I think I have about 27 subscribers (hahaha actually I do really know how many I have because I jump for joy every time I get a new one). I know I haven't posted many videos and they're not that creative, but I am working on it and intend to put in incredibly amounts of work over the summer and I refuse to give up. I know I have a lot of great tips to offer and great ideas I just need the finished product to come together in my head (it wouldn't hurt to have a VIDEO CAMERA), but alas the life of a jobless college student that will have to wait. Anywho I would say it is time for my bed time so I will leave you with this. I wouldn't consider myself to be a religious person but I am set in my faith and believe everything happens for a reason and I think the bible is beautiful.
